Monday, November 27, 2006

From the way that you acted to the way that i felt it, it wasn't worth my time. - The Used

You've done this wrong, It's too far gone, these sheets tell of regret.

I admit that i am just a fool for you.

You've got me up against your wall.

This is were we both go numb now

You broke my heart again this time

You're fading now, you crossed the line

I'll pretend to want and think of what we should be- What liars we can be.

Clutching memories held so close.

Repeating words of love spoken too late.

Mend me, break me, make me. You're all I've got now.

So you play the mistaken... and I'll play the victim in our screenplay of desire... I'm still writing the letters I'll never send.

You always amazed me, but thats the past, I kept silent and it rained for days my insides were drenched but I guess that's the part of growing up

I'd run to you but pain awaits, I'm coming home but mum I'll be late.

This is about broken hearts
This is about me bending again for nothing

just give us one more try

Maybe love will find us again for there is always tomorrow

i am nothing more than a line in your book

you'll be a memory.

You took me over the edge
And left me there to fall by myself
The word love meant nothing to you
I was taken in with your lies
And you knew I was too weak to leave
But you were wrong.

giving up hurts the most.
we are heading for the exit

Monday, November 20, 2006

ok so its over, i'm one year older.
thanks for the well wishes.
and thanks to those who have celebrated it in advance for me.
esp rach.
today is just a normal day. just like every other day. :)
sometimes birthdays aren't filled with party poppers balloons and all.
tmr i'm back to being a slave worker. ha cheers to the hard knock life.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

this song is exactly how i feel right now man. just came back from camp.

There's no need for you to tell me that i'm sorry.
said i'm sorry.
i've got to find a way to stop you falling into my mind,
i've got to find a way to keep myself from thinking of you.

Find A Way - Plain Sunset

Sunday, October 15, 2006

a new destination, i'll say my goodbyes,
with my back turned to you, i know we've tried.

long walk home

i'll take up pain and suffering, but i'm such a sucker sometimes.

The Fight

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

HELLO JEREMY!



- rach

Sunday, August 20, 2006

ok i am about to say something very important.








embrace yourselves, all you people.








ready?











jeremy have decided to stop playing dota until promos are over.
















WOW!

Saturday, July 15, 2006

baybeats 2006!! omg this year is better den last year but! BUT BUT BUT. the security guards didn't even allow moshing. wtf. at least last year no body surfing but moshing was allowed i think.
ingride was good, west grand boulevard was good, nothing to declare was good, Love Me Butch was fantastic. haha. i'm so damn tired i'm gonna sleep. wei loong lost his phone while moshing sigh. christian was "social - " and he brought some girls along, wei loong was hyped and so was everyone else. delvin literally went nuts. qikai yuan zu wei qiang and nigel left halfway.
CHRISTIAN MR PREPPY haha. high pants wahaha.

heng ah manage to came home. wah. i'm kinda sick now.
what about training tomorrow ? :O

Thursday, July 13, 2006

ok i only blog when i feel like shit or when i'm very happy. ever noticed?

so well i'm blogging now cos i feel like shit, a fucking dirt bag on the floor being kicked around.
ok maybe i'm exaggerating but still fuck it. exams are over and results came back. early this week, i was still happy, we were still happy. on monday, although i looked kind of tired after sunday's match, believe me i was happy when you came around.
tuesday i had my fothermucking chinese oral, fuck nothing came out right. the ever so nice chinese teacher had to assist me but i bet i fucking wasted the oral. thank god for qikai, i had a friend to listen to my fucking long complains about oral. thanks qikai. though you were not around, i came to realise maybe you would have more fun with rachel then listen to my complaints, so i was ok.
wednesday we got back our results, i was crossing my fingers till my fingers bend so much, not to comment much on my results, lets just say i am satisfied. people around me didn't do so well, so i tried to be sensitive. maybe i couldn't be as sensitive as i wanted to. but whatever fuck that. you got back your results too, i didn't wanna tell you my results cos i didn't want you to get too sad over yours. you didn't reply me for 8 hours and i initiated even though i thought you were being angry at me. Tried to console/comfort you, maybe i am not very good at that, so you just pushed me away with one word replies and it continued till thursday.
we didn't damn communicate that well cos i'm not in the same plight as you? maybe i just wish i was.
i've been a total wreck for the whole of today, feeling the cold shoulder. Shamir wasn't helping cos he was depressed too. Sandra became a nutcase. Sheer not satisfied with his results, while yvonne wasn't in school. i tried talking to you, but maybe i just don't know what to say, after all you've pushed me away before with one word messages. i'm sorry if i mumbled but i just didn't know what to say. Left the school after that conversation, feeling the shitty feeling. its like you don't really know what you're sad about, its like everything just seems such a turn off.

fucking came home, had some emo time, which i don't usually have and now i'm laying back on my chair, here typing on this blog. i'm sure i'll be fine in a while. well, at least i hope i'll be. i seriously hope you'll promote after the fye results are out.. and i pray that you'll be fine and move along after the fucking mid years. please tell me you'll be fine.


"a false front hiding those tears i've tasted"

forgetting is never easy. all i can say is that i'm trying.

Saturday, July 01, 2006

we won today :D wahhaa the best feel good match ever.
man i love hockey.
AND I LOVE MY VANS. haha omg kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss.
thanks wei loong. many many thanks- now i love my red/blue vans to bits.
hahaha. my my. i am crazy over you, vans.
and you too.

its nice meeting up with the t.c people during the weekends- christian, xing wei and max.
usual guys benteoh, qikai and nigel. lets do dumb stuff like smoking up the restaurant again.
nigel was damn bad to qikai with the retardation stuff, but man i'm used to nigel's stuff. qikai just don't be so slow next time. haha XD

"we're living in a everyday combat."

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